Something important prompted this column—a gaping hole in knowledge. A friend and I were having a conversation about Michael Jackson and his life’s work, and the song, lyrics, and the short film "Black or White," came up in discussion. Both of us grew up in the sixties, and our dialogue covered most of the relevant issues and the discussion went on for hours. I brought up Stevie Wonder’s equivalent, “Ebony and Ivory.” She remembered. We spoke of The Black Panthers, Abbey Hoffman, Reverends Al Sharpton and Jesse Jackson, and Michael’s childhood during the turbulent civil rights movement. We talked about John Lennon and the Beatles, Yoko Ono, Julian and Sean Lennon because it was the anniversary of John’s death. We spoke of the riots in Chicago, Viet Nam, and the Peace Movement and flower children. I recall those days with a wistfulness that I am not able to explain in words. It’s a feeling. I wish I could share it with you; it’s not possible.
At some point the phone heated up on my end as I realized that my friend had just gone through some fresh, and still stinging criticism, for speaking about the history within Michael Jackson’s work. It had raised the ugly issues of racism and white guilt. And though she could speak with me about it, she was just too weary to address it in ways I had previously suggested—like writing it, teaching classes or a podcast of our “black-white” conversation. But when I brought up the subject again, all she could say was: “I can’t. I’ve paid my dues. I can’t pay them again.” There was such a complete and utter resignation in her voice, such morbid weariness! I completely understand. But part of me got really angry as the tears in my throat stung silent and sad. My friend holds a rich piece of history that may never be shared.
You see, she is black. African American. Negro. And she’s been a lot of those other things that people say to differentiate a shade of skin color, some of them not so polite. She can’t tell you the stories because when she brings up the subject, some say she is rehashing a past that is irrelevant now or that she has a secret agenda.
Well, I lived that same past and my stories too, could make your hair stand at attention, but I never had to worry about “being… while black” or trying to make myself harmless or invisible or to keep pushing down my justifiable DNA-cellular rage, like a beach ball underwater. I didn’t have to keep my radar on high alert or scan my environment in perpetual motion to feel the vibe for safety, and test if I was too presuming in just my presence alone. I can tell you stories of racism from both sides—back and white. And red. My partial Native American heritage is testament to my ancestors similarly turned into non-humans and called savages, which is every bit as hurtful as the N-word.
My friend and I have an intimacy that not many share because it is safe talking about where we come from with someone who understands where you came from, and what perils littered the path that you took to get here. What you have overcome, how hard it was to work your way here, and what it means to land in the place called now. And just how weary and spent is your soul now that you have arrived.
I confided to her that I loved not just music, but dance. I remember that while Dick Clark’s American Bandstand was exciting, Soul Train was the happenin’ place. (For the younger crowd- Bandstand was a kind of virtual music and dance club for white kids on after school TV, but Soul Train was the rockin’ black version.) So the natural progression for me—a blues, soul, and funk music and dance addict, was to find my way to the reality version of Soul Train, which meant the clubs on the north side of Milwaukee and the south side of Chicago. Many times I was the only white girl in the place.
So I understand my friend’s transverse fatigue. I lived it too, but not in the same way. It’s hard to understand prejudice unless you have walked in those shoes, or in my case, the white girl with moccasins. The intolerance shown my friend for her grandmotherly, archetypal wisdom, is an affront that just simply cannot stand. We need to acknowledge and honor all those who came before. Remember Michael’s tribute to Sammy Davis Junior? It was homage to his paving the way so Michael might follow.
The past and Michael Jackson’s part in it; his contribution to the present and impact on the future, is not to be understated or dismissed. Not by me—and now not by you. Nor will it be made irrelevant on my watch by the ignorance in that glaring vacuum of knowledge crushing the spirit of my friend. Michael Jackson’s life and how he lived it, how he and his life were shaped by the times in which he and we lived, and how that influence helped him shape the future, is very relevant to understanding Michael, The Man. It is also an essential piece of how Michael’s aesthetic informs his work.
Those younger fans or the newcomers to the MJ party, cannot fully appreciate Michael Jackson’s work until his courage, his boldness, and the depth of his love for humanity is fully comprehended. It was his stealth that saved him much because to out overt racism was politically incorrect; it was his boldness and the silent screams that made him a target for those who awoke to what he was doing.
To put some perspective on the times: The Vietnam War was ongoing and Kent State was fresh in the collective memory. (At Kent State, protesting university students had been shot and killed by the National Guard, an incident which pitted a generation of idealistic youth against their own government. John Lennon was on the FBI “watch” list for being a ‘peacenik” and “troublemaker.” There was an attempt to deport him and ban him from the United States. Michael Jackson was on lists that we may never hear about and never know. So forgive me the history lesson, indulge me and permit the white girl to tell you…
Michael Jackson was a civil rights activist. Michael, the Jackson Five and the Jackson family, grew up in troubled and racially charged times. Prejudice was prominent and permanent, and the black man (meaning the collective race) was a second class citizen. Much of the south was still segregated when Michael was born— black people had to stick to their own kind in schools, neighborhoods, public places, and even rest rooms. The doors of restrooms invited “colored” to separate and frequent sub-standard facilities. Black entertainers like Sammy Davis Junior, Little Richard, Louis Armstrong and others, were tolerated and a bit more acceptable because of their talent, but often had to come in through the kitchens and garages of fine hotels and public venues because the front door was off limits to “coloreds.”